Saturday, 31 December 2016

2016 - What a Weird Year

This year has been probably one of the most shocking, exciting, confusing years on my life, not only personally, but also politically. (I think we all know what I'm on about...) So this post is basically my personal review of 2016.

Friday, 30 December 2016

Rant 001


This post is basically just the biggest rant you will ever read, and it's because right now, I'm crayyyzy pissed off; I mean, what is there to not understand about boys? Well let me tell you something. There is a hella lot.

Tuesday, 22 November 2016

My Winter Essentials


Never did I once think that this would be as hard as it was, but one of you lovely people emailed me, requesting I do this, so that I shall.

So it's getting colder and colder here and the UK, not to the extreme levels of, like, Greenland, but it's certainly parky. I mean, it hasn't quite reached 0 degrees just yet, but it's about 4. That's still rather chilly. Anyways, cold weather means different skin requirements. Your skin dries out and your lips crack and you get colds and it's all just rather grim. So I've attempted to put together a few of my winter-skin-care-weapons that have got me through winters past...

Sunday, 20 November 2016

Bad Days

So I've been trying to think of some kind of exciting blog post to type up for you, something motivational and 'advice-giving', but everything I try just doesn't seem to be right. It doesn't seem to be honest or accurate. I'm just not in that position. I'm just having a bad day, well... bad week. And do you know what? That's okay. There's nothing wrong with that. It happens to the best of us.

That's what everyone says. And yes, they're right. There is nothing wrong with that. But when you're feeling like crap, that's not what you want to hear. You don't want to hear that 'everybody has bad days'. You just want a hug, a blanket, maybe a good cry, and a friend. Someone who will just nod their head and squeeze you tighter at the right moments. Unfortunately, I'm pretty much forever alone (😂) so that isn't really an option at this present time...

So when I feel like crap and I'm single, alone and just bleuurgghhh, I do these things. I have absolutely nula motivation to do it, but then I also know that I will at least feel a little bit better and hopefully yas lot will too...

Thursday, 27 October 2016

My Happy Place

Everybody has one...

There's a place where each and everyone of us feels content and happy, whether it be in the hills, in the sea, just generally outside in the fresh air, tucked up in bed, or even just being surrounded by people we feel content and comfortable with, we all have that one place where we feel most like ourselves.
Mine is no doubt the sea, or just generally the coastal area. Rain or shine it never fails to calm me down and take me away from things I don't want to think about. But for me, it's not just any old coastal area, not just any old sea. It's Bude (the Cornwall one, not the Devon one). I've gone there every year for the past 14 years and it, without fail, makes me so happy. As most of you are aware, my relationship with my parents isn't exactly angelic, in fact, to call it rocky is an understatement, anyways, even Bude somehow manages to temporarily reconcile most differences.

Sunday, 25 September 2016

Dear Jane...

If you don't know who Jane is, see previous blog posts...
To fill you all in, Jane left on Friday. She's gone off on a new adventure. This is a little letter I've written her. Whether I'll tell her about it... hmmmm... we'll see. Maybe I will. Heyyyy if you're there.

Dear Jane,

Wednesday, 14 September 2016

Back to School

Is it just me??

Is it just me who, despite finding a strong comfort in school and the support network it provides, still gets ridiculously anxious every evening and morning before school? I always wake up in the morning with immense stomach pains that make me sick, and a headache that two ibuprofens do nothing for.
I went back to school last Tuesday, September 6th, but as part of the sixth form. I am unbelievably grateful to be able to get into the sixth form, as without the school, I don't know where I'd be. I guess, in a way, I felt I owed it to the school to do well and when I found out I was able to be in the sixth form, I was so happy, I cannot explain. That was August 25th.
I think it was about a week later, and reality started to kick in, and just the thought of going back to school made my heart pound and my hands and legs shake. I had had about eleven weeks off school, due to finishing my GCSE exams on June 17th, so, having had a longer break, I guess I was more nervous than normal to go back.
Now, as I had the time and space to write things down and take a step back, I decided to think about this anxiety logically. One of my major anxiety triggers is the fear of being disorganised or forgetting something, no matter how small. So, how could I try and minimalize this anxiety, and help myself in some sort of way? 

Friday, 5 August 2016

Thank You

*this gets very deep and honest*

It's Been Five Years...

So last Tuesday my year group had our leavers assembly, and suddenly the prospect of growing up has become so much bigger and more real than it ever has been. It's so weird to think that I will probably never see about 60% of the people I have spent the past five, some thirteen, years with, again.

This blog post is more of a thank you post to my school. I love it. Yes, there have been times when I would have gladly set fire to the place and watched it burn down with sheer joy, but those times certainly do not outway the times when I've never wanted to leave and not been able to wait for the morning so I can come back in. This whole concept of 'liking school' may come as a bit weird to many of you, as we're all supposed to hate school and the staff and being educated, but I can explain. I'm not sure if any of you will understand why by the end of this, but if you've had similar experiences, I'm sure you can relate.

Saturday, 28 May 2016

Anxiety During Exams

What an absolute bum, right?

The build up of stress and pressure piles up and you don't know what to do. Then suddenly the exam is tomorrow and you feel like you know nothing and then you just collapse in tears, curled up on the floor with your head feeling like it's about to explode and your chest physically hurting, so much so you feel/are sick. You get through the night and it's exam day and your anxiety picks up all over again, but you walk into school with a mask on your face, hiding behind the terror and managing not to cry. You sit down and your head is a mess and you can't do anything because everything aches and your hands are shaking.

Well, here are some little tips that could help in these situations...

Friday, 27 May 2016

A Little Life Update

How Y'all Doing?

Ayup!! I'm back!! It's been a while, I know, but in my defence, I had mocks, then I forgot my email for this account, then I remembered it, then I got ill, then I lost my short term memory, and now I have finally remembered again. 

So this post is just going to be telling you what's been happening since January. 

Sunday, 24 January 2016

Dealing with Anxiety

*I'm sorry this post is so unbelievably late, but I hope you understand that this subject is something very sensitive, and I didn't want to offend anyone in anyway. I've been working on this post for what seems like forever, but anyway, apologies*

Anxiety, the Little Devil

This subject is something that affects so many people, including me and so anyone reading this who thinks anxiety is a joke and is just stupid, I would kindly ask you to leave this page and maybe come back when you realise that it isn't.
Anxiety has an impact on the person themselves and also the people around them like family and friends, but does show you the true friends you have, as these are people that will stand by you even if they find it difficult to comprehend.

Friday, 1 January 2016

Changes to Make in 2016

2016 IS HERE!!

To a lot of us, it's a time for celebration and partying, but for some, it's just another year and another day. Either way is fine, but it's a good mark stone for starting something new or making changes in our lives to make them easier or make us better, whether physically or mentally.