Sunday, 25 September 2016

Dear Jane...

If you don't know who Jane is, see previous blog posts...
To fill you all in, Jane left on Friday. She's gone off on a new adventure. This is a little letter I've written her. Whether I'll tell her about it... hmmmm... we'll see. Maybe I will. Heyyyy if you're there.

Dear Jane,

Wednesday, 14 September 2016

Back to School

Is it just me??

Is it just me who, despite finding a strong comfort in school and the support network it provides, still gets ridiculously anxious every evening and morning before school? I always wake up in the morning with immense stomach pains that make me sick, and a headache that two ibuprofens do nothing for.
I went back to school last Tuesday, September 6th, but as part of the sixth form. I am unbelievably grateful to be able to get into the sixth form, as without the school, I don't know where I'd be. I guess, in a way, I felt I owed it to the school to do well and when I found out I was able to be in the sixth form, I was so happy, I cannot explain. That was August 25th.
I think it was about a week later, and reality started to kick in, and just the thought of going back to school made my heart pound and my hands and legs shake. I had had about eleven weeks off school, due to finishing my GCSE exams on June 17th, so, having had a longer break, I guess I was more nervous than normal to go back.
Now, as I had the time and space to write things down and take a step back, I decided to think about this anxiety logically. One of my major anxiety triggers is the fear of being disorganised or forgetting something, no matter how small. So, how could I try and minimalize this anxiety, and help myself in some sort of way?